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Memory

May 13, 2009, 10:24:19 AM by *TheLeavesOfMemory
Literature / Poetry / Romantic / General / Free Verse

I tripped over your memory today
It haunts the ground I walk on
I found myself falling into open arms
Remembered your voice as it called my name

I walked into a wall today
Pressed my nose against the glass
I remember revolving doors
And how you stopped one in its tracks

I fell down the stairs today
And nearly twisted my left knee
And I remember how all the times you loved me
You never saw me hurt

I paced around my room today
Remembering our first phone call
My voice still shaking, I couldn’t sleep
Small things like that may never change

I found myself a gift today
Remembering how little you gave me
And how so little meant so much
I slid it on my pinkie, one finger from where it’s meant to be

A memory we’ll never have
A birthstone ring of mine and yours
Little diamonds, little stones
I turn it to the side, read the small engraving

In Loving Memory,
A place you’ll always be.

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The act of love Loving someone is an active process:
it is an emotion that wanes and wavers.
Like all living things, there is death
once it is static –
no more inhales, no more ex-

We can be tempted to freeze someone
to stop an idea and hold onto it.
But in the act of holding on
we let go of life.

Together-
we've created a space for evolution.
Each day, I wake up a new person
to a new love, but the familiar touch
and familiar eyes.

I know that nothing's changing
everything's changed.

To live in the moment and let someone share it:
such a simple concept, but still so foreign to some.

Two years ago I started falling in love with you-
leThe act of love by *TheLeavesOfMemory

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Waking up Every morning I take two pills
and I find myself crawling into this new human skin.
I feel my back lift, my head flows back.
My airways open.

I've been broken my whole life
and I didn't even know.

I've been asleep my whole life –
I don't know how I got here.

To wake up, with my body overgrown,
scars from slouching, not realizing
I've been screaming my whole life
moving-picking-thinking-shaking

I was blind- and now I can see.
the clouds are gone- my feet
are secured to the earth
life has almost lost it magic

but at least its finally real.Waking up by *TheLeavesOfMemory

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I want to be a Retro Princess by *TheLeavesOfMemory

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Change Paths Even if someone said, you can go back
and change the past, I would not know
which part to touch, I could not go back
to the mindset I was in and honestly
make a different path.Change Paths by *TheLeavesOfMemory

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Wasted I was so afraid of losing everything,
he died,
I lived,
with nothing left to fear.
He saved my life from becoming wasted.Wasted by *TheLeavesOfMemory

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You are not. by *TheLeavesOfMemory

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These are my most recent pieces, most of them have something to do with grief, death, or love ... really they all do.

Please read, it helps me to share my emotions, even if its with strangers.

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The unnamed poem I've just walked through a mental door,
And my stomach wants to fly,
My limbs are really sore,
And I don't remember why,
3 minutes ago I was dreaming,
Except I knew something was wrong,
My eyes, they are streaming,
And my joints don't feel that strong,
Everytime I try and blink,
My eyes suddenly ache,
Everytime I try and think,
My thoughts disintegrate,
I hear people whispering around me,
My ears appear to be fine,
The way they're talking, they haven't seen,
This problem I face all the time,
There's something that I learnt that day,
That's kind of helped me be,
You may be the nicest person on Earth,
But pThe unnamed poem by ~nsikhonsou

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lovesongs
he is green. naive.
he has a sweet childish face
and i just want to trace all the smooth edges
and smudge his smell onto my fingers.

he has a laughing heart
and a light that shines out of his eyes like
a flashing green light. go go go.
live live live.

he sucks in the smell after it rains
like he can’t get enough.
filling up every empty space of his lungs.
and i wish it was me he craved.

he waves his hands when he talks
like the air is something to feel with every nerve.
he says you can look at the sun through your eyelids
and it turns them into a warm place where only you can go.
i’ve tried it and it’s true.

lovesongs by *Zaratops

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Ya ... I know I fav a lot but I want to be able to look back and find the little pieces that made me smile, made me frown. Most of the things I favorite because they have one small point, one small piece that touches me, reminds me of someone special ... or shows how I feel, or how I think he would feel, or if I just think its plain old good writing. I dunno why I fav things, I just need to having a collection of writing/pictures waiting for the day I break into tears.

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Growth

Journal Entry: Mon Nov 14, 2011, 9:22 AM

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In this last week I have grow and healed more than I have in the last year. For the first time in my life I have found a grip on who I am and WHY I am the way I am. My whole life I've been on autopilot, in survival mode, and I didn't know why. I always believed that my health and my mind would always just be a bit - off.

I am dreamy, spacing, scatterbrained. My brother used to ask me if I was deaf when I missed bits of conversation.

I got medication for anxiety, and I discovered this bold, energetic Darla where medication should dumb me down. I found it hard to stay still - I couldn't do what I wanted, I had to move. And I figured out that the anxiety was a mask for the real problem: ADHD. I'm going to try to get a diagnosis this week.

On Thursday morning Shawn gave me a medication that fixes his blood sugar- but could also help with ADHD.

About an hour later, as I got off the bus and started walking to work, the world stopped moving. My thoughts stopped spinning. And I could SEE like I hadn't been able to SEE for my entire life. I could see everything in front on me, stillness, calm, peace. Normally I am walking quickly, never noticing the traffic or the people or the houses. But I could see it all, on this cold fall morning. I cried. Normally if I had an emotional moment like this I would throw away the whole day to explore it- but I walked to work- pulled myself together. I sat down at my desk and I looked up and I took in my surroundings as if I had never seen them before... and I just started working. I did more work that morning than I had done in the last week. Coworkers talked to me and I didn't find it annoying. I talked to my boyfriend later and I could really hear ALL of what he was saying and I laughed a whole new laugh. No more nervous laugh. Everything feels new. I've been blind my whole life- and now I can see- with no background chatter, no static, no noise. The world just is- and I can finally feel like I'm a part of it.

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Nov 14, 2011 Growth
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Feb 5, 2011 I don't know what home is right now
Jan 14, 2011 2 Years
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Darla
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Canada

Life has a way of sneaking up on you. In a really really nice way sometimes

Current Age: 21
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